Just Another Lost Soul~~~

Kind of lost lately... Especially with my career and relationship...
Not sure what I really want...
Don't know what I really need to do...

Work is full with pile of shit...
No matter which one that I start first... I will be in deep shit...
Which make work kind of pointless lately...
As you know no matter how hard you try... The result will going to be the same...
Sometime I will just have thinking of getting out from there and start something new...
Perhaps take up RPM courses and become a RPM instructor...
Which inspired by Eric who planned to get certified next year...
But I wonder would I be too old for that...
Perhaps be a writer or journalist or someone earn a living with writing...
Which should be kind of cool for doing something you enjoy as your career...
But I pretty much sure that I will starve to death if I do so...
Perhaps do something that totally out of my mind like a porn star...
Oh God... I'm going to be famous by then...

Still I don't a single idea of what to do next...
For time being I shall be work as hard and as smart as I can be...
With full preparation mentally and physically of leaving my comfort zone...
Until the day when I finally figured out what I want for the rest of my life...
LauSai used to told me this...

If you had prepared yourself of leaving... You will eventually...
If you don't really want to go... Then stop thinking...

I disagreed with him when he said that...
But now I started to find his words are kind of true...